Saturday, October 16, 2010

Wine time

I'm in the middle of having a bottle of wine all to myself. Sometimes it feels like that's all I do when I'm alone. It's my "me time" to relax and reflect on things but usually it turns into me reminiscing about the past. This generally ends up in me being in a melancholy mood. I begin to think about "better times" and ultimately this makes me feel sad. I know better though, but wine has a way of throwing any common sense out the window. It's funny how wine affects me differently depending on the situation. If I am out with someone and having fun, it can have the opposite effect on me. I guess this means I need to limit my solo wine consumption.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

What to do...

Time flies here in NYC. I can't believe it's already Fall and I've passed my one year mark here in the City. A lot has happened since my last post and instead of things being clearer, I feel more confused than ever about everything. I had initially decided that I'd be leaving NY to move to CA, but now part of me is having second thoughts. I still have issues with NYC life but I don't know that moving right now is necessarily the best choice.

Perhaps I am over-thinking things. I don't quite know. I do know that regardless of whether I leave here or not, some changes in my life need to happen fast.

On a lighter note, I am ready to get a new phone. Last year I bought a Nokia N97 and for the longest time that was my dream phone. Today, that phone is up for auction on ebay. It was a decent phone but did not live up to my expectations. I am now looking for a new one. I really want the HTC Evo because it has all the features I want in a phone (except a qwerty keyboard) but it is only available on the Sprint network and they don't use SIM cards so purchasing an unlocked version is not an option. The new Iphone is nice but I'd have to switch over to AT&T and I hear to many complaints about their network so I wonder if it's worth it, especially since it would cost me more than my current plan.

Tonight I saw the G2 for the first time and overall I like it. It has everything I want in a phone with the exception of a secondary camera for video chatting. For some reason I really want one. It was one feature thing that my N97 had that I really liked. I'm not sure I'd do much video chatting anyway but it was nice to have as to use as a mirror (slightly lame, I know). Anyway, this may be my next choice which would mean I am sticking with T-mobile for now. A part of me didn't want to change carriers anyway. It's the one thing in my life that's remained consistent for the past 7 years or so and for some reason, it bothers me to think of leaving them. Perhaps my relationship with T-mobile has a deeper meaning for me.

Anyway, all this phone shopping made me realize that nothing is ever perfect and sometimes you have to let some things go in order to reach some sort of happy medium.