Blue Martini Groupie

And now for a more positive blog entry. Today I completed my tour of Florida's Blue Martinis. Blue Martini is a local chain of lounge bars which specialize in, surprise...martinis! The first one I went to was the one at the Galleria Mall in Ft. Lauderdale and I loved it. Since that fateful day in March I've visited their other locations in West Palm Beach and Orlando. Tonight I finally went to the 4th and last Blue Martini in Florida; the Tampa location. After visiting all four locations, here is how they rank:

• 1.Blue Martini @ Galleria Mall, Ft. Lauderdale
• 2.Blue Martini @ Millenia Mall, Orlando
• 3.Blue Martini @ International Plaza, Tampa
• 4.Blue Martini @ City Place, West Palm Beach

Blue Martini is definitely one of my favorite things about moving to Florida. Finally something positive. ;)

Lost...

Those who know me are aware of the fact that I am feeling lost careerwise. It's nothing new really, I've been feeling this way for the past year or so if not longer. Lately the feeling's been stronger because I'm not happy at work and the other day I realized that I am six months into the 30th year of my life. It's time to get my act together and figure something out once and for all. If only it were that easy. :/

I am at a scary point in my life. I'm living in a still relatively new place, working somewhere I no longer want to work at and feeling uncertain about what my next move should be, not to mention the fact that I owe a lot more money than I would like. This is definitely not where I expected to be at my age. When I was a teenager I thought I would have my life figured out by the time I was in my 30's. Silly me.

Anyway, a friend of mine suggested some books that might help me find myself which I will read. I always thought it was so stupid when people said "I'm trying to find myself" but now I totally understand what that means. I kind of wish I didn't.

Music makes it all better

I love music. I always have. If it weren't for music I don't know if I'd still be around. When I was in H.S I used to listen to heavy metal because it was the angriest music I could find and it helped me get through some tough times that I'm not sure I would've survived had it not been there to assure me that I'm not the only one feeling down/angry/whatever. Back then I was depressed about life in general. Looking back I'm not sure why I was so upset about things. When you're young there's always hope that things will get better. When you're my age it's different. There's stll hope but there are also so many more concrete reasons to be depressed. At 30 you are more aware of mistakes you've made and reality which is not always so great. Fortunately, there's always music to help you get through tough times. Today is one of those days. I'm not feeling so great but at least I have The Strokes to get me through. My problems will still be there but at least I have music to help me feel better.

This is the song on my itunes right now:

What Ever Happened?
By The Strokes

I want to be forgotten,
and I don't want to be reminded.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet.

I wanna be beside her.
She wanna be admired.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet.

Oh dear, is it really all true?
Did they offend us and they want it to sound new?
Top ten ideas for countdown shows...
Whose culture is this and does anybody know?
I wait and tell myself "life ain't chess,"
But no one comes in and yes, you're alone...

You don't miss me, I know.

Oh Tennessee, what did you write?
I come together in the middle of the night.
Oh that's an ending that I can't write, 'cause
I've got you to let me down.

I want to be forgotten,
and I don't want to be reminded.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet.

I want to be beside her.
She wanna be admired.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet...