Pleather vs. Leather

So one trend i've noticed recently is that there seems to be a lot of pleather goods out there; bags, jackets, shoes, etc. It seems to be harder and harder to find good quality leather products these days. Are environmental freaks to blame for this? The worse part is that even though these products are made of crappy quality, retailers are charging leather prices for some of them. For example, there was this cute Guess jacket I saw made of what I thought was black leather. No, it was actually made of black pleather but you'd never know it from the price tag. It cost $128! Why would I pay that much for something that's basically made of plastic? I want something that's going to last me. If I wanted to buy crap, I would expect to pay cheaper prices. I feel like recently, everyone's been trained to pay high prices for crap products. It's sad really but I refuse to give into this trend.

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Magic 8 Ball

So one of my favorite apps on my phone is the Magic 8 Ball app. Why? Well, first off, it reminds me of my days on the chatrooms after I'd discovered the beauty of the internet. The chatrooms I'd frequent (The Megadiner and The Tavern) had a command where you could ask the Magic 8 ball a question. Those were the good ol' days!

Secondly, I like to ask it questions as if it truly knows the answer to what I am asking. A lot of times (like right now), I'll be sitting on the train trying to make a decision about something so I'll consult the ol' 8 ball. Is it stupid? Maybe a little, but I can be easily amused.

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Single and Unemployed

So the two things I want more than anything right now are a job and a boyfriend. The funny thing is that the process of acquiring either one is actually quite similar. Dating is like interviewing for a job. You go out, get to know the person, try to impress them and then hope that you interested them enough to ask you out again.

Right now I'm not sure which is more difficult to attain. I've been unsuccessful at both recently so I'm not feeling very good about things. In fact today I've been especially unmotivated. Blah, I'm going to bed now (keep in mind that it's 5pm).

I wonder...

So being that I am currently unemployed, I have plenty of free time to do as I please. This can either be a good or bad thing depending on how productive I am. I tend to get easily distracted and will spend hours on Yelp or other websites. I've been trying to go running more because I can fell myself getting fatter by the minute. Anyway, free time also means lots of time for me to ponder about things. The other day I was thinking about how every decision you make affects your life and how some decisions, although you may not realize it at the time, can completely change your life's course. I think back to my days in Florida and there are a couple of choices I made that altered my life forever. Sometimes it's about things that you do, or don't do, or people that you meet. I find myself wondering "what if..." and where I would be right now had I made a different choice than the one I did. I don't dwell on these things, but it's interesting how life is like a "Choose Your Own Adventure" book. I only wish life came with a manual where you could skip ahead to different outcomes so you could make the best choice.

What is a date?

So as you all know, I'm not a big fan of dating in the city. It hasn't quite been the best experience for me but being that I'm staying here, I'm giving it another shot.

One of the things that I can't stand about dating is that half the time I'm not sure what's a date and what is not. I mean I guess the word date means something different to everyone. To me, a date is when someone asks you out, whether it be to dinner/drinks or whatever, and they pay for it. These days that definition seems to be so obsolete, at least in my experience. Perhaps I'm attracting the wrong kind of guys. I don't know but there have only been a select few that have been gentlemen about it. I mean, I always offer to pay for my food/drinks but if someone asks me out, I expect him to pay. It's all just very confusing and frustrating. All I know is that first impressions are everything and if a guy throws the bill in front of my face after he asked me out and it wasn't even expensive ($20 really?) I'm out. And yes, that really happened to me.

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Change of Heart

So I obviously haven't updated this blog in a while. A lot has happened since my last post but before anything I just wanted to make my official announcement that I will not be moving to CA after all. I went out there set to find an apartment and during the trip, I had several realizations that made me ultimately decided to stay in NYC. The only bad part about all this is that now I am job hunting which has been a bit of a slow process but I'm trying to make the best of the situation. I've been enjoying my free time as much as possible. It's been nice to be able to do things on the weekends. Working in retail I was rarely off on Saturdays and Sundays so it's been nice having a bit of a life.

Anyway, now that I have all the time in the world, I should be able to update this blog on a more consistent basis. Well, we'll see how that goes. ;)

All I want for Xmas...

This year has gone by quite fast. I can't believe it's almost Christmas. The sad thing is that it doesn't even feel like it to me. Maybe it's because I have no one special in my life right now. It's like they say, it's not where you are but who you're with, and right now it's just me. I've been feeling especially lonely lately but I've been trying not to think about it and instead keep busy with planning my escape from the Big Apple. I don't think I could stay here another year and maintain my sanity. I've just been unhappy here. Sure there have been some good times, but overall, it's just not what I am looking for. The time had come for me to break up with NYC. It should all be finalized in mid February. I have a new year in a new city to look forward to. Hopefully this will be where I will find my one, or where he will find me.

Loving my Evo!

So, I did it! I left T-mobile and switched over to Sprint to get the phone I wanted, the HTC Evo and I love it! In fact I am blogging on it right now! Fun times ahead!

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Wine time

I'm in the middle of having a bottle of wine all to myself. Sometimes it feels like that's all I do when I'm alone. It's my "me time" to relax and reflect on things but usually it turns into me reminiscing about the past. This generally ends up in me being in a melancholy mood. I begin to think about "better times" and ultimately this makes me feel sad. I know better though, but wine has a way of throwing any common sense out the window. It's funny how wine affects me differently depending on the situation. If I am out with someone and having fun, it can have the opposite effect on me. I guess this means I need to limit my solo wine consumption.

What to do...

Time flies here in NYC. I can't believe it's already Fall and I've passed my one year mark here in the City. A lot has happened since my last post and instead of things being clearer, I feel more confused than ever about everything. I had initially decided that I'd be leaving NY to move to CA, but now part of me is having second thoughts. I still have issues with NYC life but I don't know that moving right now is necessarily the best choice.

Perhaps I am over-thinking things. I don't quite know. I do know that regardless of whether I leave here or not, some changes in my life need to happen fast.

On a lighter note, I am ready to get a new phone. Last year I bought a Nokia N97 and for the longest time that was my dream phone. Today, that phone is up for auction on ebay. It was a decent phone but did not live up to my expectations. I am now looking for a new one. I really want the HTC Evo because it has all the features I want in a phone (except a qwerty keyboard) but it is only available on the Sprint network and they don't use SIM cards so purchasing an unlocked version is not an option. The new Iphone is nice but I'd have to switch over to AT&T and I hear to many complaints about their network so I wonder if it's worth it, especially since it would cost me more than my current plan.

Tonight I saw the G2 for the first time and overall I like it. It has everything I want in a phone with the exception of a secondary camera for video chatting. For some reason I really want one. It was one feature thing that my N97 had that I really liked. I'm not sure I'd do much video chatting anyway but it was nice to have as to use as a mirror (slightly lame, I know). Anyway, this may be my next choice which would mean I am sticking with T-mobile for now. A part of me didn't want to change carriers anyway. It's the one thing in my life that's remained consistent for the past 7 years or so and for some reason, it bothers me to think of leaving them. Perhaps my relationship with T-mobile has a deeper meaning for me.

Anyway, all this phone shopping made me realize that nothing is ever perfect and sometimes you have to let some things go in order to reach some sort of happy medium.

One year later

It's officially May and you know what that means? It's been almost a year since I returned to Brooklyn. It's kind of crazy to think that I've been back for that long already and it's really got me thinking about things. My move back here was a last-minute decision based on circumstances beyond my control so it wasn't entirely planned out. Fortunately things like finding a job have worked out well, however, I am still not sold on the idea of staying in NYC long-term. I'm not sure this is the lifestyle I want for the rest of my life. I promised myself I'd give it a shot to see how things go, but so far I'm not sure I want to stay here. Despite the length of time that I've been back, I still don't feel at home and I miss the quality of life that I had in other states. Ultimately the lifestyle I want would not be one that I would have if I stayed in the city. Most people here would think I was crazy if I told them what I want because it sounds so cliche and boring but it's what I seek. I want to have a big modern house in a nice quiet neighborhood that I can drive home to (emphasis on drive) every night where I would be greeted by my dog(s) and future husband. If I stay in NYC I wouldn't have a big modern house, I'd be commuting home on the train and I'd probably be single because everyone who's single out here seems to be too busy to have a relationship. These are the things I consider when I think about the possibility of staying here. I think that deep down I know I won't stay, it's a matter of getting myself together and planning my escape. Anyway, it's something I'll just have to figure out by the end of the year. I will say that thought of a new adventure excites me and what keeps me going each day. It's funny to think how many people out there would envy me for living in NYC. It's not terrible, I just don't think it's right for me.

Springtime Strep

So last week my throat started hurting a bit but I didn't really think much of it. I hoped that it was minor and would go away on its own. After a couple of days it seemed to improve but then returned with a vengeance this week. The past two nights were especially painful to the point that I could not sleep through the night. I knew I had to go see a doctor. Fortunately I was off from work today and I found a doctor in the area and went first thing in the morning. Today was one of those days that I was so thankful that I have a car. I would've hated to have to take public transportation feeling the way I did this morning. Plus, that's probably how I got sick in the first place.

Anyway, it turns out I had Strep throat so the doctor gave me a prescription for antibiotics and 5 days worth of a steroid to help reduce the swelling in my throat because it was that bad. The first thing that came to mind when she said steroid was "will it make me fat?" but I didn't bother asking. I figure it's only 5 days. How much harm can that do, right? Well let's hope so anyway.

It's funny though, I started thinking about how your priorities change when you're sick. For example, this morning my sister texted me to ask me if I was going shopping this weekend (it's Macy's friends & family this weekend) and I was annoyed that a) she texted me before 9 am (I was only up this early because I thought I was going to die from the excruciating pain) and b)shopping was the last thing on my mind at this point. In fact, things that normally matter to me on a day to day basis meant nothing. All I wanted was to be healthy again. I guess it also made me realize that I ought to be more thankful for the fact that I rarely get sick and when I do it's never anything major.

Anyway, I spent all day in bed today and am already starting to feel better. Can't wait to be my old self again!

Where are you?

Today the weather was really warm. You can tell that Spring is right around the corner and I don't like it. Whenever temperatures rise, the number of annoying couples out in public tends to multiply greatly and this is the last thing you want to see when you're single. I'm sure that judging from my previous posts you can tell that I strongly dislike being single and as a result, I hate Spring! I'm tired of being the single one and do not intend on being single forever but being that I've decided not to date until I move out of NYC, it will be a while before I am once again in a relationship.

Right now I can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel but one day I will hopefully find someone that can truly make me happy. Sometimes I think about that and I wonder where this person is. Where is he and what is he doing right now? Is he wondering the same thing about me? How much longer must I wait before we meet? Some days feel like that day will never come, but I have to remain hopeful that one day I shall find my one.

Time to let go

People always say that if you want something badly enough you should never give up because anything is possible or attainable if you try hard enough. Sadly this isn't always relevant when it comes to love. I ought to know because for the past 3 years I've been in love with someone but things never quite worked out the way I wanted. I tried really hard to prove to this person that I loved him and that I would do anything for him but nothing I did or said really changed anything. Recently I found out that he's moved onto someone else but for some reason, even though I knew that I needed to forget about the possibility of us ever being a couple, my heart refused to give up. People have told me to move on for so long and deep down I knew it was the right thing to do, but I just couldn't do it.

This morning, however, I found something else out about him and something finally clicked and I knew that things were officially over. It was one of the worst feelings in the world. I felt like something inside me died and all day I felt really empty. I think it's funny that you can have 100 people tell you the right thing to do and in your mind you know they're right, but it takes one little thing to finally make you realize that it's time to let go.

Anyway, if my life were a book, this would be the end of one of the longest chapters in my life and time for a new and more rewarding one to begin. I wish I could just skip to the good part.

Pensive-induced insomnia

So I was really tired and ready for bed but as I got under the covers I started my usual pondering. I started thinking about how I'm really considering leaving NYC sooner than later and whether or not this is the right choice. Do I give living here more of a chance? I always believe that time is money and at my age I can't afford to waste any of it. However, I then started wondering what it would be like if I did leave and go to CA. I started kind of thinking about the possibility of things not working out once I'm out there. Really I think I'm just getting cold feet because it would be a complete new start. Changes like these always excite me but a little part of me also tends to get a bit scared. I suppose that's natural. All I know is that I'm not feeling being here right now. I think a big part of it is that I've met too many jerks and this is discouraging for me. I also miss driving my car and I just don't get to do that enough out here. I feel like I spend most of my life in the subway and I'm not a fan.

Blah, I really need to take a break from thinking and get to sleep.

Time to give up?

I am so sick of the dating scene in NYC. It just plain sucks. If you think the economy sucks, try dating in this economy. It's the worst thing ever! I've basically paid for dates 3 times in the past 6 months and most other times my so-called date and I have split the bill. What ever happened to a guy paying for a first date? Is that now reserved for a certain kind of girl or has everyone gone cheap? I can't stand to go on yet another bad date so I think I just give up completely. I think I'll just focus my efforts on getting the hell out of this place...

New year, new blog entry

My poor, poor neglected blog. Why don't I update you more often? I'm sure my reader(s) wants to read about things such as all the bad dates I've been on and how much I despise the MTA. This year I must be better about doing so, starting with tomorrow night. ;)

11/12/2009

The cutest Village Voice cover ever!

Lunch @ Au Bon Pain!

Butternut squash & apple soup in a bread bowl. Yum!

Perr and his new vest!